…attest to His good, perfect and pleasing will

Last day yesterday at work.

Kind of surprised I can’t bear to leave the place, sat in the tea room longer after work with some of them, chatting. .

Didn’t know Jollie Bean started their outlet in my workplace when I left the place. sheesh.

Gave those who were on their momentos, and a handshake… They are all wonderful people. Dedicated, kind, conscientious…. Excellent staff and colleagues.

Kind of grew out of missing people. Dun know if I would. But I think I’ll miss them lots.

Had kind of mixed feelings when I threw those uniforms away. I kind of smelled the uniforms a last time before I threw it into the bin. And handing my nametags and staff card back to my Sister.

Good bye Ward 43. This is an excellent place. Excellent people. Nice air-con. Nice sofas in staff room. Nice biscuits. Nice snacks in tea room. Nice friends. Nice equipment and dressings. All fantastic. I’ve not regretted working here. And I’ve not regretted my choice of being a staff there. I now look at those similar staff with kind of respect and a kind of nostalgia.

I will miss climbing the “hill” to work.

Hope you guys will continue to provide excellent work..

All the best.

A new chapter begins.

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I can pretend to be a fool and listen to those lies, because I know and understand those reasons for the lies…

If love can cover over a multitude of sins, how many lies am I expected to look over? Just some thoughts…

I don’t hope about human love. For I know that only God truly loves me and He is the only one that I will ever trust. The rest is just my choice on how I live, be it due to reasons of disappointments or giving up hope, that one chooses a certain path… As we have the freedom of choice. Including to choose to be lied to. But inside, we are laughing at ourselves, knowing the hilarious situation of it all.

For I want nothing out of another human, only God is able to give me what I really need.

Since the outcome would be the same, why not choose the path that one can benefit others? Heartbreaks and pain is nothing compared to being able to help someone significantly in a part of their lives…

Three years have passed, so painfully slow, yet like the flash of a light, it disappears into the realms of history…

Who am I to judge someone else?

Instead, I should follow Jesus’ example..

What am I doing? I can no longer follow my own selfish desires and ruin another fellow human being…

John3:

¹⁴Just as Moses lifted up the snake in the desert, so the Son of Man must be lifted up, ¹⁵that everyone who believes in him may have eternal life.^[a]

¹⁶“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,^[b] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. (NIV)

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For the snake (sin) has already bitten us, no matter how good we try to be, or how many good acts we do, or how hard we try to obey the laws, we still cannot get rid of its poison. Only by looking upon the Christ and having faith in Him, can we be saved……

The Law is like a mirror, the purpose is to show us the filth of our own sins… Which we can never get rid of by ourselves, except faith in God’s only Begotten Son.

When in darkness, a little light lit will illuminate and shadows will dance.. May the light get bigger and fill the whole room of the heart, to show one where is the best path to take…..

Dilemmas are never easy or really that simple.

But the Lord is sovereign, and will know what the ending will be. Even if it’s my choice. Will I be able to face up to it? Will I be able to survive the pain?

This kind of pain will be like throwing your heart down a twenty-storey building… You thought that the heart is made of stone, can’t feel pain, but when it reaches the ground, then will you know that it is made of flesh and blood.

There is a tinge of sadness to this mid-autumn festival, seeing children holding their lanterns outside with their siblings and family… missing a little boy very very much.

Just feel that this song is very appropriate for the mood..

He is one of the best gifts that God has given me yet…

Thanks to God and to him….

Sometimes, it is scary to be honest to one’s own self, and to realize the reasons behind the motivations of one’s own actions… can be quite scary.

In a very long while, I feel peace today.

God is nowhere? God is now here.

I’m no longer the same me anymore…

God’s sword of righteousness cannot be fooled indeed… He is indeed sovereign over all things, including my future. Cannot play play with God.

Just thought at the mrt just now, the person that I would want to meet the most, and that thought bring a bit of tears to my eyes, and that would be Jesus, my Lord and Saviour, how long more to go?? Life’s sufferings are nothing compared to knowing that I’ll see Him one day. Just have to endure…do well for this last paper…

• Tar coats your lungs like soot in a chimney and causes cancer. A 20-a-day smoker breathes in up to a full cup (210 g) of tar in a year.
• Changing to low-tar cigarettes does not help because smokers usually take deeper puffs and hold the smoke in for longer, dragging the tar deeper into their lungs.
• Carbon monoxide robs your muscles, brain and body tissue of oxygen, making your whole body and especially your heart work harder. Over time, your airways swell up and let less air into your lungs.
• Smoking causes disease and is a slow way to die. The strain of smoking effects on the body often causes years of suffering. Emphysema is an illness that slowly rots your lungs. People with emphysema often get bronchitis again and again, and suffer lung and heart failure.
• Lung cancer from smoking is caused by the tar in tobacco smoke. Men who smoke are ten times more likely to die from lung cancer than non-smokers.
• Heart disease and strokes are also more common among smokers than non-smokers.
• Smoking causes fat deposits to narrow and block blood vessels which leads to heart attack.
• Smoking causes around one in five deaths from heart disease.
• In younger people, three out of four deaths from heart disease are due to smoking.
• Cigarette smoking during pregnancy increases the risk of low birth weight, prematurity, spontaneous abortion, and perinatal mortality in humans, which has been referred to as the fetal tobacco syndrome.

How to detox your lungs?

1. Stop smoking.

2. Avoid smokers.

3. Read this link: http://hubpages.com/hub/Lung-Cleanse-to-Help-Quit-Smoking

Love nanase! She composes her songs’ lyrics. Very meaningful.

Yumemiru Shoujo ja irarenai

Meaning of the lyrics for this song:

At the crossing at midnight
Depression combined with a slight fever
You don’t feel the same as I do
I want to pass through the door of tonight
And get to tomorrow
I don’t want things like promises

I don’t hate your profile as you drive the car
Shut up for a bit
I want
To be able to open my heart at some point
Open the window
Bang bang
Bang bang all through the town

I want you to hold me on the harsher nights
No no, that won’t reach you
I want to lose myself in a wonderful lie
No no, that’s not enough
Even now, in the mirror
I can see myself as I was that day, trembling
I can’t stay a dreamer

This distance isn’t absolute
I just can’t say
The very words I want you to understand the most
That’s enough
Rumours and fashionable gags
The red moon is shining on our hearts

Surely someday, someone
Will change the world
That’s what I thought
I’m not going to be drunk with my own tears any longer
Open the window
Bang bang
Bang bang all through the town

Hold me tighter, all the way down to my heart
No no, my love won’t reach you
I want to lose myself in a serious lie
No no, I can’t dance with that
I still gaze into the mirror now
I know and I always will
I can’t stay a dreamer

I want you to hold me on the harsher nights
No no, that won’t reach you
I want to lose myself in a wonderful lie
No no, that’s not enough

Hold me tighter, all the way down to my heart
No no, my love won’t reach you
I want to lose myself in a serious lie
No no, I can’t dance with that
Even now, in the mirror
I can see myself as I was that day, trembling
I can’t stay a dreamer